Many of us seek freedom when we transition from corporate America to being an entrepreneur. Freedom to be our own boss. Freedom to have our own schedules. Freedom to live a life we desire.
We desire this freedom so badly that we push ourselves…hard. We endure the mental anguish. We push through the physical torture. We can almost taste the freedom on the other side.
Often times, our corporate jobs lack that magic ingredient that makes us feel like we’re serving a purpose in life. We feel empty. And we know we’re meant for something more. Something than has meaning and adds value to our lives and the lives of others. This burning, passionate desire drives us to become an entrepreneur.
And so we set out on our entrepreneurial journey. Balancing our corporate job with our new business and family and well…life…will present challenges and stresses, but with determination and motivation, we follow our hearts to live our purpose.
5:00 AM…the alarm goes off. I lay still and drained. My first thoughts are filled with how to prioritize all the things I need to get done for my corporate job before I can even think about working on my business. My body instantly sinks more heavily into the mattress and my heart follows.
I force my limbs to move, letting my legs dangle from the side of the bed. My head hangs as though a sandbag is wrapped around it.
Melancholy swells inside me.
I put on my workout clothes and drag myself to the treadmill. The stretching feels good and I feel the blood begin to course through my body, waking me up. I do enjoy my treadmill time. It’s treasured me-time. My spirits lift as I step onto the belt and hit start.
My legs move and my body and mind become alert. I say my prayers and start my mindset work; replacing old stories in my head that no longer serve me with powerful, positive thoughts of person I truly am and the life I’m creating for myself. Joy, calm, and confidence spill into my body.
Energy ignites me while my mind focuses on what steps I will take TODAY towards creating the life I want through my business. I say my mantras and affirmations and I visualize what my life will look like and how I will feel. My body floods with happiness and my soul feels free.
As the seconds tick down on the treadmill, I feel my legs and arms tighten as the dozens of tasks awaiting me at my corporate job come surging like a tidal wave into my head. The sting pinches at the base of my head, sending what feels like electric shocks down my neck and shooting through my spine. Hopelessness veils over me.
I shower and head to the prison of my corporate job. The imaginary shackles bind me to my desk through endless hours of conference calls…meaningless conference calls. I churn through inaccurate data, babysit the work of others, and fumble with the broken tools we have to use.
I answer one email and 10 come in. Conference calls are back-t0-back for six hours and we’re not supposed to multitask. Text messages fly in rapidly. My heart races as my workload piles up. I stare at the number 520 next to my inbox and my chest tenses. Five hours into my day, I realize I haven’t gotten up from my desk and when I go to move, my joints are stiff.
While listening to a pointless conference call, my mind wanders a bit to my business as an idea for a blog pops into my head. A spark of pleasure tickles me and I jot down the idea on a sticky note.
“Where are we on that, Debbie?” The question jolts me back to my cell and my heart sinks again.
And throughout the day, this emotional roller coaster hurls me around like a rag doll, stealing my freedom and robbing me of living my life…my purpose.
Finally around 9:00 PM (and often times later), exhaustion forces me to stop. Now I can devote some time to my business. I check my 300+ emails, follow up on my social media platforms, and start working on the blog idea I had jotted down earlier. My brain in a fog, creativity escapes me.
And suddenly, I feel very…alone.
The online world has quieted down at this hour. I feel stuck and end up popping into the Facebook groups of some mentors I follow. They have tons of followers. Their messages are enlightening and inspired. They’re posting frequently and all over the place.
“How am I ever going to accomplish this and be successful?” I wonder. “What am I doing? I don’t even know what I’m doing? There’s no way I can do this.”
The fears and doubts I worked so hard to wash away in the morning with my mindset work have come blazing back with fury. All of the old stories that, “I’m not good enough,” “I can’t,” and “I’ll never make any money,” rage through me.
In my state of sheer fatigue, I allow defeat to steal my purpose and smash my desires. Tears blur my sight.
For a moment, I wallow in the self-pity. But ONLY for a moment.
“No!” I determine zealously. “I will NOT let this be my existence,” I vow to myself.
“I was put on this earth to make an impact. I was put here for a purpose. To help women find the power within them. To help them know and feel their worth. To help them transform their lives and create their own successful businesses. To help them build a life they fall in love with every day. To help them achieve their freedom. And to achieve my own freedom,” I remind myself.
“I will NOT give up. I will NOT give in,” I promise myself.
And now I want YOU to make a promise to yourself. NEVER, EVER give up…EVER!
Life is filled with ups and downs, this we know. The transition from corporate America to being on entrepreneur will try to chew you up, spit you out, and stomp all over you.
But, you…YOU are brave, you are passionate, you are empowered!! You have such great strength inside of you. Tap into it every day. Practice your mindset work every day. You have the ability to power through all the negativity. You control your mind…your destiny. And I believe in YOU.
You are capable of all that you desire. Live your purpose.
What purpose are YOU living? Please share below. Let’s keep each other going!